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30 July 2013 @ 11:21 pm
Oh hey there.  
So wow, it's been a really long time since I've even thought of this place.
Almost 3 years.
Oh my how the time flies and people change and yadda yadda.

I look through here and man, I'm a different person.
I'm 21, I drink more than I should, and I barely make graphics anymore, I barely like anime/manga which was a HUUUUGE part of my life as a teen.
I'm in college, I have no friends really, I work all the time and have a love/hate relationship with my job.
I realized any and every aspect of normalcy I thought I had in high school is/was a lie, and friends aren't there forever.
I'm sad all the time now. I used to not be so sad, but it feels like my life is in this huge downward spiral as of late.
I've fallen for a guy I could probably never have...

Then again, I'm not that different in some ways.
I'm still shy and awkward as fuck which is why I have such a hard time making friends in college.
I have yet to have a boyfriend, but honestly, I'm in in such a huge hurry to put myself in a relationship as I was in high school. I just figure that when it happens, it will, and hopefully the time is right, and I've come to accept that I'm a late bloomer.
Or I could just be saying this to comfort myself from the fact that I'm a big loser, Idk.

I just wanted to say these things as a form of reassurance to myself, maybe?
At least say it on a medium where there's not so many prying eyes.
Honestly though, you can never bare your soul on social media, because there's a time and a place, and Facebook and Twitter shouldn't be privy to your every personal, deep thought, because social media at its best is indifferent, at its worst is insincere and cruel. Which is very sad, but that's just reality.
Besides, sometimes your personal business should be kept as such.
Idk, I've just been thinking these things and wanted to get them out in some way or form. No one will probably read this, and it's for the best, but I needed some sort of slight comfort, and keeping my emotions and thoughts bottled up has been no good.
This has been cathartic. I should get on here more often.
See ya, LJ.

- Danya
 
 
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